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Is what we all want to do isn't it? I mean this place we all just want to get away. No one wants to stay here in this place that we all call 'home' 'safe' and-- I mean it's nothing bad but I think I lost my mind with this pain. Aleve isn't doing much but I can't sleep because of the pain. It's starting to keep me up at nights. Anyway-- can I ask you a question? How do I put this-- had you ever so sexual active you kind of-- you know? Nevermind I think it just stupid to ask. . .
My package came in the mail but I'm still not sure about buying things online. I like them but the tail was bit short. Oh well-- are you glad today is summer? It's pretty hot and I sometimes had to take off my shirt because of it. I do not like sweat I don't want to take so many shower because of it. Oh. did you see kung fu panda two? I saw it like thirtieth times already.
If you are asking why am I in pain it's because of my tooth. It hurt so much and I don't have money to see the dentist but I'm scared to see the dentist sometimes. Mostly cause my last visit like sometime in April they use that drill and owie really. That drill hurt me and I wasn't numb I wish i was but I had a flashback when the doctor cut me up last year. Eh. . feels bit ironic now. I got made up today because I couldn't pronounce some words correctly. I'm starting to remember why I keep my mouth shut and I got mostly pick on. It's nothing bad but person was interested with some things I had to say. Even it is bit geeky sometimes.
Please don't judge me I mean it was pretty geeky I don't do it much but I hate talking about stupid otaku stuff really. No, it's not like that I just with into another level really even my ear hurt with this pain ow...
Oh yeah... I can't draw the troll face and um I think I have a fever so far because of it. I think I should go to that anicon that close by but I feel like a sore thumb if I go... even seeing those silly outfits. I never been too one but I hate talking about it but I try not to think about it really. Do you drink water? I know stupid question but I sometime think water has a taste like something sweet. People say water has no taste but if you think about it. No no hear me out... err... nevermind.
What do you think about this journal log? I mean I feel out of place really maybe it's the only reason why I'm still here to find a place I belong too. Maybe that's why I hang out with reject back in high school but thinking about high school I was mostly getting pick on because how I am. Did you know I get really jealous with people having a good relationship with another person. I act like I don't care but I kind of do hate that really. I mean if I think about it some people did wanted to-- err-- nevermind I feel silly now. Maybe I'm just down with this thing that going on and everytime I see it I act like it's nothing big. I'm always like that I hate acting like I'm very mature then yell at their face but I think it's because I'm never am happy. Heh this is funny...
I feel like crying now. Sorry I think I'm just fool sometimes but did you hear about what happen. No, it's just a joke. I'm sorry I think I just wasted your time already. You do not have to read this please. I mean there no point on reading I'm just confused and down for the count. Well I just sometime think writing this and making you read this well... I just don't want you to waste your time it make me feel bad really. You know I hate this face that people think I'm very cool and popular... it makes me sick sometimes really even I know I am not I'm really am just some loser but I know some people with hate me because I'm putting myself down too much but it's true. I'm nothing special I don't see what others see in me even I'm just scared kid really. I sometime feel like I'm sinking in this cold water.
I'm very sorry I wasted your time. I kind of do want someone to talk too but when i do find someone to talk too um-- they just um-- want me to leave them alone.
My subject of choice is pretty lame and er... kind of otaku-ish really.
Did you know I collect almost four hundred art piece. I do blame a user for making keep this vocaloid avatar but person never gave me the avatar art he/she promise but I kind of am grown with this... I sometime think I am a computer program voice
synthesizer.
It's funny but it is true but when I do sing in real life I kind of do it because I'm sad. Oh! Right! Did you know I love music it's true but I sometime hate vocals but it's annoying when I hear someone talk about music like a genre and speak about how great it is. I hate that... I hate that so much. Why are you here still reading I thought you stop!?! I'm sorry I might as well stop myself maybe that why you are still listening nor reading.
~Ayame

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Did you know donuts that has a hole in the middle are rip off. Eh, sorry. . .