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I hid in a box in my closet. It's something I don't think I could throw away even that I burn so many items and document throwing this away can't be done. It's like one of those items you want to get rid of but you can't that what it feel like really. It's one of those things even I look into it I just get annoyed on why I even had it. Photo, letters, objects, invites ect. I know it's silly but I know everyone have things like this they just can't get rid of nor hide it. Reason I had it in my closet even when I wake up it's always the first thing I see my closet. No, please don't think like that but it doesn't haunt me just hate to see it being look at kills me inside. Their are lots of boxes and clothes in my closet but I hid it so no one could find it even I get one of those raiders coming in my room looking for cables or another power cord even I had some in a backpack full of wires I kept.
These last few weeks been one of those weeks I kind of laugh it out on. Nothing new but I keep bumping to people I think I know but people I do not want to see as well. I hate being in public places sometimes because of the fact you might met someone you once known. If you ask me I hate meeting old faces bring the new meaning of awkwardness in my point of view. I was thinking of getting a new sweater that doesn't have a hoodle but get one that does I'm confusing like that but I do wear them in the heat.
I'm kind of upset that all the money I was saving I had to spend it on a movie I kind of but didn't want to see. I end up with 5$ but had to start over again. Do you feel hurt when things like this happen? I know I did but the movie I saw was okay but hard for me to put words on it. I'm not a fan of war movies but I kind of like it ish.
Speaking of which I did that thing when I saw movie poster Arrietty I know it's an English dud but if I with to see it I might spoil it. Movie came out long ago already it kind of funny to watch people get up and giggly watching it.
Thinking about it I think I am bad person when it comes to these things. I don't like going to public because I can't keep my mouth shut.
No joke, I think that's how I annoy people to begin with and I don't even try. Sorry but I with to this art walk the other time once again I spend my saving their. Nice thing from artist even some of them kind of are-- off. I gone with a friend even it kind of feel like a date. Most people I saw were couples or just people having fun kind of the reason I said feel like one like had you see those movie that talk about make out cliff. Yes, that how I saw it really. Before I speak anymore about it I saw a young man holding a sign said "Do you want to hear a story." I kind of figure what his story was gonna be but I kind of wanted to hear it even person I was with the whole night at that time might find it interesting. If you're gonna ask what the story well it's one of those stories how they found god.
These stories are lovely to hear if you had the time hearing their rise and downfall but the whole thing that kind of make it interesting is the whole how he spoke to him. I'm not a religious person if you're thinking that but see it as reading a bio on your internet websites. These last few years I kind of see how people get really offended when you talk about religion of any kind if that count even if forums not just Gaia guy you do see people trolling it but I would kind of want to hear person that doesn't believe and somehow believe when they run to death as I think about it I already heard few of those. Still had fun looking at the items they made like earrings, shirts, drawings ect. I had to play rock paper scissor to win a shirt but I kind of wanted to play the game not for free stuff. He won best one out of two but the shirts were good even I landed in this otaku like table. They called it anime stuff but I just said otaku as in terms.
Person I was with kind of feel out of place cause most of the things I was talking about person doesn't understand but I don't blame him I don't normally talk about it and do some kind of orgasm to see my little ponies, wolf hat, sketch artist, plushies ect. Just letting you know its hand made and I bought rainbow dash but they kind of mess up on the coloring. Too bad I didn't complain about it I could gotten it cheaper.
Oh yeah!! I gave some of my music to my friend and they said I improved I don't know if thats a good thing or bad but I kind of cry on the inside because its something no one told me before. No one ever told me I improved on anything even they download music but I didn't really care much of it even it old hair bands. I wanted to laugh when the rumors were true about a band I know. I can't say what band because it's pretty embarrassing for me to even say I use to listen to them. Wish my copy of mass effect didn't die one me but lots of things did happen these last few weeks these where just things I kind of liked it.
~ayame