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Since I detected a threat when I write anything personal. Now I feel like I should just let it go as it not much of a threat since I get scared when people get close to me. I don't think many people get that both offline and online. It really doesn't matter anymore but I do feel like it does since everyone to me is a stranger. These last few months we're as bad or anything just me being more social even it kind of scares me. I did keep getting those rozen maiden and touhou dreams almost a week but it kind of bug me even it was in the pass.
While ago few users want me to go on this anime convention called 'San Japan' and one would take me out for lunch. For some odd reason it kind of terrorfiled me to know such a thing would happen if I go even anything could happen. I with to a con not too long ago but I didn't take picture to share with you but I do have some from last year but I'll post only a few.

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Anyway the fact I post'd these photo were a promise I somewhat said I'll do but I kept them from public view because I had no reason on sharing but these are old so it wouldnt matter much on the side note I feel like I change a lot but right now I feel like it wouldn't matter. You're just viewer and readers that has nothing to do but read something interesting or non - interesting but I guess thats what bring me here to share such unnoted info to you as readers.
Oh by the way I don't seem to understand why people want me to sing to them. I hate singing cause my voice either cracks or I get scared and forget the lines it does happen a lot to me really even I want to be brave but I know for the face that I can't its one of my flaws as a person. I hate myself but I really do love myself even you as users don't know much about me I mean I don't know much about me even I'm scared of myself and only myself but I'm sorry for getting off topic right now. These last few months were fun but I don't like the thought if you thinking how hopeless I am. . . still here I am mindlessly typing what comes in mind and you reading it mindlessly as well heh heh heh

I drew few dakimakura pose but I'll be amazed if someone did a better version of the one I drew and sell it at some dakimakura store I mean it's been three years but I don't feel like I'm popular but I guess I'm glad because I am not popular at all but I somewhat have a small fanbase still don't think much of it.
sorry for the mindless chatter but I'm kind of scared even I told someone what happen to me when I was a kid in person. He was mad at me for not telling anyone what happen since I should had told but I didn't but I shouldn't let something like that bother me now today is the future and I might as well make every minute count and cheer you reader but mindlessly reading this once again-- thank you.
~ayame