I really don't care nor even thinking I should care. I'm out of the job and still looking really I was gonna quit anyway then this baby shower I was invited for... meh roommate invited me so I might as well go out beside sobbing cause of other issue like trying to contact meh mum.
I haven't spoken to her for along while but her birthday pass and I feel stupid to say nor do anything beside yelling in the phone.
I don't like having fun most reason would be I get carry away. Like I get into it and I would push though the line where it isn't funny or anything to the line as fun. So I didn't have fun I was mostly quite the whole time.
Wish I would had fun beside just looking down like always but when I get encourage to be in the group then being casted out.
I try to keep it in the line. It was fun between I got someone to hate me. Playing around mostly is just something I do but its sad when you don't care about people even this person hates me cause I used to be her boyfriend buddy even I dont know her.
True story I don't know how did I get her so mad at me but I kinda wanted to leave had a bad feeling. she came in with a knife but there a cake there even the back of my mind 'cake is a lie'
they cut the cake but I didn't get any I left after that but this was yesterday. I feel bad cause i feel like a looter. today wasn't good as i thought even I try to make it good roommate was gone until some time later. we were watching tv and back to deadrising 2 wish i had membership so i would play with some of you guy but I don't like using mic js
roommate brought friends and we ate burgers I with to my room as some of them i don't even know and i was kinda busy writing my own lyrics. Then again I feel like a loser thinking about even know.
i just notice this journal is being read so i feel happy some people knows what going on with my life.
just hope people don't get all... stalker on me
~ayame
ps
making a release UTAULOID voice bank called 'ACT II' first one is kinda shitty might as well make it sound bit mature emo
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