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Where do I begin? So much happened today. Reiner is still loose and quite the formidable opponent. On top of that, he has several small spawn around as well. I don't think there's anything I can do other than to grab a gun and add my firepower to that of my neighbors. My powers are useless in this situation. It's difficult to admit that. My powers have been nothing but trouble. I used my fire form today and it was once again uncontrollable. I wasn't even able to regain control after shifting back to human form. It's like I have multiple personalities now. I have become so human that my remaining draconic essence is forced to become sentient and fight back. It wouldn't be so bad if not for the fact that they've made my love life a mess as well. The icy side wants Crayon which is all well and good, but the fire side demands Tuffy. It made me say and do things I was not proud of. I managed to bring them both under control once again but I fear to transform again and I don't know how to explain any of this to either of them. Perhaps I will see them again tomorrow. The one that I really have to apologize to is Tuffy. It wouldn't be so difficult if I didn't still love her on some level. When I think about how cold Crayon was to me today, I think that perhaps I should just give up and go with Tuffy. But that could easily be the influence of my fiery side. Even now I can feel them try to break free and I realize that they will. I have to explain it to someone and get help before something terrible happens. I don't even want to think about it.