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Hi, back again.
It's funny that I made this public even though no one will ever probably read this.
No one ever bothers. Nobody wants to hear about another person's problems because nobody will ever listen to their own.
Well, you know what?
I'm unhappy.
Despite the fact that I care so much about my girlfriend, she doesn't listen to me. She doesn't want to. And then she never replies.
If she's got things to do, that's fine. But really, what exactly is there to do when you're sick?
I'm such a child for always venting on here, but honestly, I have nowhere else to do it.
I know I told her whenever I feel upset, I would tell her....but honestly, if I did, I would just end up exploding.
I hate acting like a butthead towards her but you know what? If you just let other guys flirt with you so much, and you don't do anything about it, despite thte fact that you have a boyfriend, then I'm obviously not doing my job and we need to break up.
See? I'm coming to all these conclusions. But you know what? It's happened so many times that I can just feel it's happening.
******** you, insecurity.
I love her, I try so hard for her... but the thing is, she's hardly ever done anything for me...I'm not saying that I should be expecting gifts but to be honest, who doesn't like something like that every now and then?
Except, the last time she gave me something from the heart was on our 1 month. That's it.
Honestly, she splurges her money on so many things for herself, but she never gives me a thought. Not even once. Airsoft gear? really? But you've never thought, "oh hey! maybe I could surprise my boyfriend with a little cupcake or something after work! "
/sigh/ I really shouldn't be complaining...I mean, it's her own money, she can do whatever she wants with it...but she's just never really been that thoughtful of a girlfriend to be very honest.
Maybe once in a while, but that kinda just means that I'm hardly on her mind.
It's funny because, she hardly ever even thinks about inviting me anywhere when she's with her friends. Even if I can't go, an invitation would be nice.
Sometimes, I just think that I'm not even her boyfriend at this point. Like, we're slowly devolving into a flirtationship. That's all fine. But can we seriously not prolong the inevitable break-up already? Seriously.