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I wake, feeling hollow. I dont want to leave this room that is full of so many memories, How to explain it? Such a feeling is a trait of the mortals, and I never was that. I pace, feeling that if I dont keep moving, I wont ever move again.
I had asked my Lord, begged and pleaded, but his voice is quiet in my ears and heart. I feel him watching me, in his way, and I wonder in some small part of my mind if it would be easier to attack... kill and destroy through all the heavens until I was Obliterated....
Instinctively I know that would be a futile effort. My Lord did not even kill the first rebel, why would he kill me?
Still, the pain does not lessen, and the whispers of my darker half are seductive. It tells me to do as I feel, to destroy without care. To give into the madness of mortals and make all simply vanish....
But something stops my will from giving in, the only thing that truly remains for me.
Duty.
I head out with a squad, secretly wondering if this beast could do what no other has. We collected mainly from Earth, as it was the only sighted place of the beast.
"Sir?" one of the reapers calls to me. "Our list is finished, will you be returning with us?"
The question is a hard one. Logically, I know that I shouldnt. My current state is something that is against my inherent nature, I feel things that those of my station have no need for.
But my life, my soul and spirit, have no more meaning that an empty Duty. To have been truly whole, and then have such ripped away to a place beyond your ability to ever reach...
The squad looks at me questioningly. I sigh, and reply with some suggestion for them to rest. She'd be more than angry with me for my current attitude, and I cant bring myself to stay in that room where it seems she'll come through the door at any second.
After they leave, I have the urge to speak with one who cannot, would not ever betray me. One who would understand me, and comfort me, just as she did when I was little.
Drawing my cloak tight around my body, I tear a hole in the spiritual plane and descend into Hell.
 Azzy Rael · Fri Nov 19, 2010 @ 08:35am · 0 Comments |
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