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Hell is many things. Its a place, a state of mind, a punishment, and at times it can be even a reward.
Its one of the few places left for me to call home.
Azzy, my youngest brother, was the only one that truly understood me I think. I didnt rebel against our Father, I just knew that was what I was expected to do. Someone had to be there to punish the wicked, and that's what I do.
Like Azzy, I do a job I hate.
The only thing that keeps me here is the knowledge that what I do is necessary, and the fewer inmates I get, the happier I am.
Im the eldest of our little family, something that made Mikey very miffed. I doubt he realizes that he never actually cast me out though- I am a good actor after all.
the 'prince' of lies, the 'lord' of darkness, Lucifer. Even I think my name sounds masculine.
But, I find myself getting off track. You came to hear about Azzy, not my personal griping. So lets continue
Azzy had always been the innocent one, the one that everyone felt needed protection. Innocence protects from a LOT of things, but betrayal isnt one of them. Before my supposed 'fall', we had all gotten together to teach Azzy all we could. He'd been so cute! His downy black wings, his trusting eyes...
Okay, I have a bit of a complex, so sue me.
Azzy, if anything, isnt in any way stupid. He's just so trusting, he's gullible to the point of insensibility. There were times where he'd run to Eve in tears because he'd thought he'd done something wrong- like accidentally stepping on an ant, or killing the grass with his aura.
I think it would surprise most people who know of recent history to find that the one who looked after Azzy the most is the one who taught Azzy hate- Mikey.
Mikey was constantly worried about his little brother, and from the time we found Azzy's farming tool, he was teaching the fledgling to fight. The other three 'horsemen' were actually made for Azzy to have playmates- unlike him, the rest of us spawned fully or mostly grown. We all had jobs, but in a world where things lived to the age of five centuries or more, Azzy had alot of downtime, and got lonely easily.
I think it was then, now that I think about it, that I began to think that Azzy was 'incomplete'.
Unlike the rest of us, Azzy's job is personal, and connects him to individuals in an intimate way. The rest of us looked on humans like they were the next step, while to Azzy they were just friends and family. Unlike Azzy, however, humans that died got to see eachother again on the other side. Azzy was about 200 when it occured to him to ask something....
I had been looking out over a bunch of mortals that were banding together for some purpose or another (Later I found out it was for some silly idea to touch the sky) for about three years when Azzy flew up to me. He looked confused over something, but being as shy as he was he wasnt going to tell me until I asked.
He was so cute!
So I asked him. "Heya twerp, why are you so down?"
"Luci, what is 'dying'?" he asked.
I knew I was in deep s**t, as any mortal parent could probably tell you.
"Well... you know when the mortals bodies stop moving, and you have to take them to the Gate? Thats them dying."
He thought about it for a bit, and then turned to me again. "Are you gonna die?"
"Maybe, someday. But thats not important, because you'll be with me if I do."
He sighed a sigh that made my heart ache. "I dont think so. If you go to the gates, I cant go with you."
This was news to me, so I thought he'd just assumed it. "What makes you say that kiddo?"
"Father said that.." his face scrunched up as he tried to remember what he'd been told, but I was rapidly becoming worried.
"He said 'Azzy, the only ones that can pass through the gates are those that you bring. Because you cannot bring yourself through, until you can you may not pass through the gates.'" his eyes began to tear up and he hugged me tightly. "Luci, please dont die, I dont want to not see you again!"
That was the first time that I realized how hard it was going to be for Azzy. Death cannot take Death to the gates, because for Death to die, there has to be a new Death- and Azzy was too innocent to make a baby angel or a Nephelim.
Those were actually a test on my part that got out of control, sadly. Id wanted to see if it was actually possible before telling Az to try- and it had put me in the dog house for nearly three thousand years with him.
So when he came to see me, with that face that hid his hurt, I nearly cried.
 Azzy Rael · Sun Nov 21, 2010 @ 04:55am · 0 Comments |
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