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I'm in a state of being in need of contemplation. I was told that we are going to move back east back to PA sometime towards the end of september. I'm not sure what I am going to do yet as to stay here or go back home.... I just need time to think it over but I'm probably going to go back home and start anew of this so called life of mine. Or if fate has it, I'll not go anywhere. I only needed to know one thing to let me know if I'm going or not. I now know that the one thing that I was going to stay for is now not worth staying for. Infact I might not even be able to see the person ever again. I'm thinking that maybe a new start will be good for the soul. I now know that what was meant to be, is not what one is able to see at this time and now that is no longer possible so when the time comes when one realizes one needs me it will be far to late due to her not knowing until I'm gone. Life scourtches that of the essence of true love. I must contemplate this life for now.