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Mostly this journal of mine will probably contain most of my thoughts. What I think about things, people.... just stuff
I Don't Know Anymore, I Just Don't Know
Okay, i have this friend who's all 'i'm stuck having an arranged marriage, nothing can change that' yet she seems to flirt with people like when you try to hate guys and the way you act towards them doesn't push them away but pulling them closer.... anyways, i hadn't confirmed that til' i introduced her to my bf, okay, now she seems to flirt with him, he doesn't seem to notice, and i've gone all cocky again. idk why but i always go cocky when i'm jealous.... i don't know anymore. i give up, watch, she'll probably end up making me die a virgin if i never get married. *sighs* she followed me from my old school to my other one, she followed me from her non-laptop class life to my laptop-needed class. i don't know anymore, i just give up. meh, i give up, she can have him if she wants, i don't need him, i don't need her, i don't need anyone, i'll just die now, before anyone care, i'll runaway to a place where nobody will know me, i'll live my life, strong, i'll never give up my life with suicide, never. suicide is my way to forfeit, living is my way to show life i can take it by the horns and play it til the end. she'll probably end up reading this but I DON'T CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she'll probably be mad at me and never want to be my friend ever again but I DON'T CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if i never write in this journal again, if i never say a single word to you again, if i never log into my Gaia account again, i'd have run away, i'd have made a new life, i'd have been somewhere unreachable, somewhere where the world stops, the earth doesn't turn, the air is frozen, and the people are gone. i'd have been on my own planet, in my own life, living it the way i should have a long time ago. Goodbye.

Then again.................................. it's all a dream, a dream of mine too vivid that even i don't understand.... it's true, i don't understand, i never have.......... she could never do that to she would never do that to me, she's too goody-goody, maybe it's just the thought of what my sis has become that scares me, my sis used to be goody-goody too, just like my friend, it scares me to hell....... vividness scary vividness, memories i can't control






User Comments: [10]
Lavapulse
Community Member





Tue Nov 20, 2007 @ 02:05am


That's weird... I've never noticed D flirt with a guy before.


BlueMoonDestiny
Community Member





Tue Nov 20, 2007 @ 02:47am


nevermind, forget it...... it's nothing, it's my dreams playing into my thoughts, dreams too vivid for me..... too wicked, too crazy.....


Lavapulse
Community Member





Tue Nov 20, 2007 @ 03:27am


Ah, ok. Shall I tell you about the nightmares J and I both had last night? It's weird... They're kinda inter-related.


BlueMoonDestiny
Community Member





Tue Nov 20, 2007 @ 05:28pm


yeah, sure.. please!


Lavapulse
Community Member





Tue Nov 20, 2007 @ 07:17pm


I'll PM you about it.


BlueMoonDestiny
Community Member





Tue Nov 20, 2007 @ 07:43pm


k


Lavapulse
Community Member





Tue Nov 20, 2007 @ 10:58pm


Ok, sent. Oh, and one of the similarites I forgot to mention was that both the victims were blonde, but that's not too much of a coincidence I guess. Some of the similarites are weird though.


BlueMoonDestiny
Community Member





Wed Nov 21, 2007 @ 12:27am


hm....


Lilac-Nights
Community Member





Fri Nov 23, 2007 @ 06:51am


jackie i'm soo sorry.. i didn't know i was doing that to you.. and it's not my fault my parents made me move ... promise i'll try to stop and my parents wanted me into laptop last year but we were too late, I'm not trying to destroy your life oe sopy it i'm not mad at you i'll just try not to flirt with out knowing .. do i really do that??!?!?!?!?!


BlueMoonDestiny
Community Member





Fri Nov 23, 2007 @ 04:57pm


nah, it's okay... it's just my weird messed up wacky crazy utterly broken imagination crashing with what i think of my sister... ugh.... i need to get my imagination fixed.... idk how though...................


User Comments: [10]
 
 
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