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Well, it seems that I may be hopeless again with this one. It seems that I am not the only one enamored with my most loyal gaurdian. I don't even know why i bother with these things. it's not like any guy would want to be with me anyway. I'm boisterous and angry and wild. A man dosen't want a strong woman. Well, at least me and Zachariya share common ground on many things. We share the same views and everything, and I have discovered how much I value feminity, which is why I view my goddess to be aura as well. Which is why I turned away from a tainted masculine god to a feminine goddess who is wise and loving. No, i don't hate masculanity, but humans have corrupted what it truly means to have masculanity. It has been used to harm people, this masculine god. Used to gain power of over people. It's not right to set one gender above the other. There needs to be a balance. both me and him agree.

But with my luck, the other girl would win. That's the way it's always been. I like a guy and another girl shows up and she's prettier, nicer, and more desirable. You see, this summoner is not allowed to be loved truly. Not from the heart. Though I have the potential to be a very talented mage and summoner, I have nothing desirable about me. I can be an airhead at times and sometimes I lose my temper. I am also very strong and i don't take crap very well. You give me crap...BOOM. There goes your head. Give my freinds crap, I stalk you until your dead. Though I doubt Zachariya would be interested in either of us, it still sucks when there is competition, especially when you know the person and see that she is a really good person. if I told who she was though, someone else would have my head though.