Okay so of boredom,I decided to write some stuff in my gaia journal. Nothing private,I am quite sure no one will ever read this but just in case.Okay so highschool started since more than a month.It's such a weird thing,you know,every thing's so different now but so the same.I am in a different class with different mates and different teachers(german teachers so also a different and better way of teaching).It's pretty nice,the most mates are okay.
Damn it in the first day it was all so freakin weird i mostley didn't know anyone in there.Like in that song,"mad world":Went to school and I was very nervous,No one knew me,No one knew me...
So yeah i made some friends and it's pretty cool.
Besides that,my life is pretty plane.I'm kinda smoking again.i'm trying only to do it at "ocasions".Like idk,camps or stuff...or just when i go out.I don't know why but i don't really enjoy smoking at school anymore.
Today I went in the parc,with the boat.I smoked in the boat.I felt so damn good,so ******** free and almost happy.What the heck?!?I think I actualy was happy.It really was a nice feeling,you should try that sometimes.
I made a new friend,he's name is Alter.Well actually that's just how i call him.He's a nice guy,he's a good listener and I think he actualy understands me.Well,I'm not sure if he does.
I feel as an awful person,a horible person.There's this friend of mine who kinda needed me but i just didn't know what to say to make her feel better so I gave up.I'm an a**.I don't feel too bad about it.Gosh I hope no one will read this,it seams kinda stupid till now.
Today I heard some stuff about ghosts.I'm not in mood of retelling the story but it was kinda scary.Scary cause it's real,or at least I think so.Why are demons bad?What made them become like that,I don't unerstand.I guess it's just like with murderers,but for some reason it matters more for me why demons are evil than why do murderers kill. Maybe demons are murderer souls.I don't know too much about ghosts and stuff.I'd like to know more.
I think that's all right now.
Damn it in the first day it was all so freakin weird i mostley didn't know anyone in there.Like in that song,"mad world":Went to school and I was very nervous,No one knew me,No one knew me...
So yeah i made some friends and it's pretty cool.
Besides that,my life is pretty plane.I'm kinda smoking again.i'm trying only to do it at "ocasions".Like idk,camps or stuff...or just when i go out.I don't know why but i don't really enjoy smoking at school anymore.
Today I went in the parc,with the boat.I smoked in the boat.I felt so damn good,so ******** free and almost happy.What the heck?!?I think I actualy was happy.It really was a nice feeling,you should try that sometimes.
I made a new friend,he's name is Alter.Well actually that's just how i call him.He's a nice guy,he's a good listener and I think he actualy understands me.Well,I'm not sure if he does.
I feel as an awful person,a horible person.There's this friend of mine who kinda needed me but i just didn't know what to say to make her feel better so I gave up.I'm an a**.I don't feel too bad about it.Gosh I hope no one will read this,it seams kinda stupid till now.
Today I heard some stuff about ghosts.I'm not in mood of retelling the story but it was kinda scary.Scary cause it's real,or at least I think so.Why are demons bad?What made them become like that,I don't unerstand.I guess it's just like with murderers,but for some reason it matters more for me why demons are evil than why do murderers kill. Maybe demons are murderer souls.I don't know too much about ghosts and stuff.I'd like to know more.
I think that's all right now.
