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Sometimes i dont know what to do, cause no one can help me with what the problem is. I ask and ask but no one wants to tell me the issue. One is this case of loneliness and i say im always there but they dont listen to me and make the issue bigger than it should be and now they mad and have no time for me or patience. I want to make it better but i cant fix a problem when i dont know what the problem is....

Dede wont tell me and I know its my fault. College is taking up all my time and we arent talking as much. I sit in class and already feel myself slipping because i want to just talk to her all day because we can have so much fun, but when she gets into her mood it takes a lot to take her out. I feel like im slowly not meeting up to her standards, but she wont meet me halfway. Its not her fault for why she feels the way she does, but it would help me to help her. She isnt really the type to ask for help and i can digg it, i dont either. As much as i want to help her, she wont help herself by allowing me to help her. And its gonna kill her when i get a job cuz the free time I use now will be next to nothing. The life she wants to live either involves someone younger who is really there or someone who has more free time and lastly the life where we are older. But even then, she will see how hard my life is, but for her id make that sacrifice bu she has to see it the way i do and until then she gonna be alone, and i hate that because one thing we share is how alone we've been and to think i told her id be there and even though i am, its not as much as she'd like.

The rest of her issue she "doesnt have the patience" and wont tell me. v.v someone help me because i dont know what to do....

I feel like im losing her already