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(Lonely Nerd Confession Time...)

slowly talking less of the relationship I ruined. sweatdrop I appreciate whoever stuck through my ramblings to make it this far. It ain't over buddy. So let's begin with what's new today.

I'm a nerd. I'm lonely.

OK...nothing new yet. I always thought my voice was whiny. Some women say it's...sexy?? I also think I am way too hairy and unattractive. Still overweight quite a bit, and my head is really small in proportion to my body sad But some women say I'm....cute?? I like games of all kind. Fighters, sports, shooters, RPGs (love them damnit!) board games, tcg (go yugioh and VS!), miniatures (Heroclix!) and such. I like messing with computers and learning new things. I also love violence. I could talk about it, enact it, practice it (self taught self defense and karate) 3nodding and so forth.

I think in a way that makes me a nerd. I seem to also be lonely. I don't know when I'll consider myself worthy enough to find a cure. I just...can't describe how empty I feel. I don't feel like I can handle a relationship. I just want to date, explore, and feel. Yeah, I believe sex is possible on the first date...just highly unlikely...and of course never happened to me. Cause I'm Mr. Lonely. And a nerd. *shakes fist at all the nonvirgin nerds* lucky bastards....I think! sweatdrop

More than ready and willing to have sex. Yet currently I am battling feelings of self-worth, making me uninterested in commitment for a while. So I'd love to wine and dine, date, talk, have fun...do a little dance...make a little love. But I think after all that's happened I'm just not ready to be a boyfriend or a husband. Ladies, am I a horrible person? Have I become a wannabe man-whore?

And so conclude the confessions and ramblings of a 22 year old lonely nerd. confused