The hoe hurt my finger, left me a blister... make that two. I chopped and whacked away for hours, leaving nothign but mudilated weeds in my path. people asked why i was so vicious and my excuse was i have more streangth then i know what to do with. and quite honestly that true. but, swinging that hoe inot the ground, knowing for a fact it would cause me pain, was the reason i was doing so well. i was letting out all my anger that has been bubbling up inside me, i didnt know wny other way to let it out. Da Rat wont tlak to me, he needs time to think. i know its my fault he hates me, but i dont know what to do about it. Mr. Dragon Slayer, my crush, my obbsesion, my ex-best friend, has taken to ignoring me. I'm too weird and cooky for any one to hang around with. Yort laughs at me when ever i say something. Mermaid is too involved with lover boy to even pay attention for more then two milliseconds. the only person who has made my day has been Bomb boy. I'm only going to call him that because today in band he made me feel special... "[star], you're the bomb!" he smiled his sweet cute smile and it gave me chills. Mermaid thinks someone is going to ask me to homecoming just so i can double with her and lover boy. but quite honsetly, i highly doubt anyone would ask me... *DQ* keeps trying to get me to ditch and use naughty language, and i'm trying soooooo hard to stop swearing! it doesnt helpt aht Mermaid and lover boy and phsyce and clutz swear all the time around me. The Gay Dragon is beautiful as ever... but also ignoring as ever... i'm jsut to crazily insane for anyone....
sigh...
Who ever read this, i'd be suprised if any of this made sence to you... I have so much more in me that i need to get out... but that was enough for now i believe, i got some of it off my chest. night!
My BlAcK sTaR sHiNe Community Member 
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