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So 2 months of silence...I took a long time away from journals. I would continue my character's life story..but no one wants to hear that. No one reads this crap, not even when they're bored. No one gives a damn about me, either. So after a couple months of brooding and situations with my girlfriend...I guess I discovered something. I used to tell her my mind all the time...but sooner or later that just makes her mad. So now I'm just gonna type it out in my journal where I can vent and she won't even have to read it.

Here's my end of it...

MY GIRLFRIEND CAN BE A HUGE ******** b***h SOMETIMES!!! GRAAAH!
I never see her, can't ever manage to call her, can't talk to her cause our schedules conflict...and on the random miracle of meeting her late at night she's just like "go to bed, you need to sleep". I'll be like WTF?! But I get tired of fighting for it...I struggle so much through life for her time and affection. in fact *I* have become more the woman in this relationship! I feel so screwed up and helpless. Loneliness hits me so hard sometimes, that I feel completely useless and alone by the time we actually do meet up. Then while I'm an emotional puddle of crap she's all like "well? I'm here you can love me now!" Yeah...great....just let me cry a little first...
I mean where's the reciprosity anymore? She doesn't tell me she loves me as much anymore. She doesn't seem happy to see me. She doesn't show me any appreciation or seem to act like she agrees with any of my feelings. If I present any of this to her, rather than simply fix my incorrectness, she just gets all "so that's how it is eh? You don't think I love you? Then she leaves in an angry huff and leaves up some ******** up message like "MEN SUCK". Yeah...stab me and let me bleed my life out on the floor please. *sigh* I think half of my venting's done....I'll get to the rest and explain why it's all my fault anyway later...