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I was quite upset when I was writing this one, but it still turned out ok:


You'll never quite understand me
Never know every detail and every thought
Never imagine my emotions or their intent
You'll convince yourself that you're right
You'll assume everything's more than it seems
But you'll never know the stress slowly building
Or the constant feelings of regret that you induce
That your oppression against my beliefs
Isn't weakening me, but strengthening my internal escape
Used to block out your rage and give me an inner bliss
Giving me the feeling that I control my own fate, not you
Even knowing that ultimately i'm my own person,
I still am somewhat effected by you're constant rants
But you'll never understand
Never be in this position
Because to you, this is all a matter of control
When I seem to step out of bounds
Cross that thin line you call trust
False suspicions, and assumptions are made
And i'm forced to isolate myself
Into a state of mind where I can freely express my feelings
Without being scolded for something beyond my control
But soon this all fades, when reality hits hard
And I realize i'm right back where I started
Living in my hopes and dreams
And being resented by you all the same
Back to the beginning knowing
You'll never quite understand me