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I don't know what I should do. People keep whispering to others that I'm slightly crazy, with the whole love thing, but they themselves don't understand. They don't understand because they have not yet been blessed, as it seems for me so far cursed, with the true love thing. Once they have they to will know what it feels like to be torn into millions of peices and not being able to talk to anyone about it. They will understand in due time. But maybe what they say is true. Maybe I am crazy. Maybe I should just let it go, if I can. Maybe I'm not cut out for this whole love thing, which I hope isn't true. Infact I know it isn't true. I'm sorry that I've been so doubtful, ever since Elizabeth passed away that day, until I've run into her, an angelic being, blessed to us by the Gods themselves, known as my Kitty-kins. I used to think life was just filled with black, hatered, death, sadness, calamities, just pure darkness, and then when I seen Kitty-kins for the first time, it all changed. A light cut the darkness into peices, shattered the darkness, then colors spilled in, the blessings of life and so forth. That was when I knew that she was the one for me, but what I don't know, I wish I did, is that if I was the one for her. Even now I ask myself if I'm doing the right thing. I believe I am because it feels right. It makes me feel like I'm invincible, when I'm arround Kitty-kins, like nothing could hurt me. But that's a lie. I know I can be hurt when I'm with her, it's happened before. Everyone thinks I'm the one who's crazy. Maybe I am, but I found something that I'd risk everything for, without hesitation. In a heartbeat. Maybe it is just a dream, but atleast it makes me happy. Maybe it will all fade away someday, but atleast I know how love feels. Maybe everything I'm doing is for nothing, but atleast I'm working towards my dream, and maybe some day that dream will become reality. If it is just a dream, then let me sleep because I don't want to let this go, I don't think I can let it go even if I tried. Love is to strong of a feeling to ignore. I wish I could ignore it. You have no clue how it is. I'm glad everything is the way it is right now, I'd not change a thing, well maybe just one thing but you can't change free will. If you get mad or upset for reading this, it's ultimately your own fault, you didn't have to read it if you didn't want to. So it was your choice. I'm sorry that I've fallen in love with Kitty-kins. I wouldn't change that even if I could. Anyways it's time that I rest now. Heaven is Love. Peace.


May the Gods bless you all.