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What kind of friend am I? I can't even get everything I promised to give some one.
I knew I'd be able to, and then everything went to hell with it. Now I'm in hell because of it. Well, not really but I might as well be. I don't belong. Everything I try to do or try to get always screws up and then I'm left fallen without anyone to help. I don't know what to do. I've been trying my hardest to get everything but now I'm cut inhalf and only have the partial ammount of what I promised. Now I'm feeling like hell because of it. Everyone doesn't understand why I have to get what I promised to this person. Nobody really understands why I do things. Nobody knows because they don't listen. I wish people would actually listen to me. I guess I'm not worth listening to, that must be why no one listens. It just bugs me that I've got no one to listen. No one to hold. No one to love. I've been cursed to be this way. I don't know what I'm going to do anymore. Anyways, I'll update when I can. Everything one does, one does out of love, but does that make one feel better? If one could get what one wants, what would be so great about it? Everything is just going down hill. One will do all one can to for the person one loves, but can it be enough to show how much one feels? Contemplation. Heaven is Love. Peace.