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Today, today was a fun day. A day where my friends and I hung out, played a big capture the flag game in my woods, went back to my best friends apartment and played the new nintendo wii. All in all it was a lot of fun. Not many flags got captured, the majority of the game was lets throw you on the ground, jump on you, and see how long it'll take before you can over power whoever's sitting on you and get back up. It was a really fun time though, I got to hang out with my friends, and well..... I got to have some fun with my girlfriend. I got to just chill out with her, nothing mushy, nothing tedious and boring, but something that allowed both of us to enjoy ourselves, joke around, and have a good time.

But as I reflect on the day I have to wonder, why are things like this so rare anymore? I love my girlfriend to death, there is no doubt in my mind about that. She has put up with me while I'm acting like a complete a**, she's helped me through loads of problems, and she's one of those people who are always there no matter what. But I find myself getting so frustrated with her. Alot of times when she comes over we often just put in a movie and watch that, and yeah I enjoy movies, but you can only run through your collection so many times before it gets old. And yet we continue to watch all these movies, and I find myself agreeing to stuff like this simply because it's easier. Sometimes, when I talk to her, when I actually try to engage her in conversation, I feel as if I'm talking to a brick wall. I'll tell her things and she'll nod and agree to them, and then when the conversations over forget it ever happened. I love her, and I feel bad saying this about her, but doesn't everyone deserve a chance to rant? I know no one's perfect, but it seems like it's so hard to have a conversation with her. And I know, even though I'm the only one saying it, that it's not just me. Alot of times when we're all hanging out, she'll say something and there'll be a thirty to forty second pause in which we all stare at each other going, "what is she talking about?" or "What did she just say?".

It's not just the conversations though, it's the events and the world around her as well. It seems like sometimes if it doesn't directly effect her, she'll be utterly clueless about it. Like, when Brittany Spears shaved her head, this was like the butt of every joke at school, in the news everyday for like, two weeks straight, EVERYONE was talking about it. But yet, three months after it happened me and another friend made a joke about it and she looks at us like we're crazy.... the worst part about this was that the tv in the dead center of the room, which the three of us were starring at, was talking about it. And yet we had to tell her that yeah, Brittany's bald now.

I love the woman, and I know this is just one of the small snag snags in our relationship. But it's really starting to get to me. It seems like it's so rare to have a conversation with her in which she doesn't end up all teary eyed, or 'something's wrong with me', or stuff like that.

I'm beginning to dislike alot of people and how they act around others anymore. This has nothing to do with my girlfriend, just something else that happened throughout the day. It seems like people act one way when they're around their significant other, one way when they're around this group of friends, and one way when they're around their parents. it's quite annoying, because alot of times people are hypocrits, they say one thing to someone, or side on a certain issue one way, and then just because the scene changes, so does their views. we invited two of our friends to this capture the flag game, and they were talking about it all week, getting all excited about it. But then the day of, I was over at my best friends house, and he had offered to let us hang out at the apartment before and after the game. This was great, it'd stop me from getting bitched at by my parents because my friends can't stop being crazy hornballs in my house, and it'd give us something to do. All in all it'd save us from spending an hour or two sitting around my room going, what do you want to do? I dunno what do you want to do? But yet these two friends kept insisting that they'd meet over at my house. But I said no, that if they wanted to come they could meet over at my friends, who lives under five minutes away, like everyone else was. I wasn't at my house, my parents weren't home, the last thing I wanted was for them to go to my house and then even if they weren't doing something they shouldn't have been I would have got yelled at because there was people at my house with no one else home. So instead of just meeting at my friends house, they just skip out on us. Really pissed me off, I know they, or namely one of them, finds my friend a tad annoying. But I've put up with some of their annoying friends, and even so they have no room to talk, or once again namely one of them. I swear sometimes the one guy of these two friends just ties to piss people off. he whines at his girlfriend when he wants something from her, if you say anything he'll try to one up you or contradict you. And then if you're trying to do something he'll just sit there and try and shoot you down just for the sake of having something to talk about...... These are not the people I enjoy being around, people who have a fun time having everything done their way, exactly their way, don't care if they get anyone in trouble, and are completly intolerant.