Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

I don't know why but I've felt the urge to write in here. My life is feeling like it's crumbling away faster. My job is worth nothing right now and I haven't had much luck on finding a new one. It might help to try harder, but I just don't want to, I'm too tired of crap to try harder.

The only good thing is that I may've found a girl that seems so good for me. Talking to her weakens the darkness inside, giving me back some of my light. But I think I've dones and said things that may've driven a wedge between us. I'm always doing it and I never mean to. Sometimes I think I'll never find a girl that can see through my stupidity. I just wish I could take back all my mistakes in life.

I don't think anybody will ever see this entry, so I don't mind telling this to the cold internet. I love a girl but I don't think she loves me. I am okay with it and I hope that she will someday love me, but until she decides to, I'm okay. I would be her prince charming and she would be my princess and queen. No, she would be my goddess. Women are the greatest gift that can be given to a man and should be loved and cherished.

When broken hearts are built anew,
Drowning love will float again,
And in my arms I'll hold you close,
And let you know it's true.

My love is not a tarnished dime,
Nor is it given lightly,
My love is given from me to you,
As a shining gift so precious.

I wish you to see with my eyes,
What I see everyday,
Not a women with many weights,
But a angel sent from heaven.

I dedicate this poem to the girl I love. May you see what I see.

I'll end this now before I lose control of myself.