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What's wrong with me...?? Why do I have to be so ******** stubborn!? So impatient. So insulting. I'm selfish. I'm negative. No wonder why I get on everyone's nerves. It's so nerve-wrecking for myself, as well as for everyone else. Why can't I just lock myself up and throw away the key... rot my life away in a dark, stuffed up, hole.

The stress is killing me inside. I haven't been to school in a little more than a week. I'm going to school less and less. If I keep this up, I'll never be able to get my GED. I've completed three tests so far... (I don't know my score for my latest one since I haven't been to school lately.) All that's left is Social Studies and Math. I don't want to take the Social Studies yet, because I feel I'm not ready, and I'm not done with Math class yet. cry I'll never get my GED at this rate.

I can't seem to keep my big, fat mouth shut. It only hurts everyone around me. I can never be happy. I'll always be depressed, pathetic, stubborn, bitchy... you name it. I don't even know why I bother talking to anyone.

My friend (if she's still known as a "Friend" wink and I keep arguing. Over stupid things, too. I know it's because I'm so impatient and stubborn. Pathetic. Perhaps I shouldn't be friends with her anymore... but everytime I try to seperate myself from her... I start crying. It seems that she's still in my... whatsever-left-of-my-broken-heart. People argue. I know that. People aren't perfect. But what can I do? I don't want to stop being her friend. (If I'm still her friend...) and I don't want to be her friend anymore. (But that's too difficult..)

What am I supposed to do? Please help me. Someone. crying