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a fight we all share..

been talking to my mother lately before she left for the PI and we talked about my goals and friends and the military..it saddens me. i had assumed that my mother was talking to me about life again because she was leaving but thats far from it. my mother told me that the reason she was talking to me was because she was worried about what was influencing me and if i had any problems with friends. i told her 'nothing was wrong' and that 'all is well'. she then took my friends into the conversation and she is worried if they have influenced me in any wrong way since i must admit i do not hang out with those who are 'good' or 'perfect'.

on and on this conversation went with questions of what my friends do and i answered every question with confidence and honesty. yes i have friends that smoke and drink and that do drugs or were into those things before and yes i accept them. mother doesnt really accept the fact that i have friends that are 'scum' of this world but i told her that theyre not scum and that they may be doing something wrong outside of their lives but my group of friends have issues that i cannot even believe.

the people i hangout the most with are the misfits or the 'scum' of this world since we all share issues and problems..who doesnt.. and we share it amongst ourselves and help one another. i have never smoked a cigarette not even one puff or have done any sort of narcotics..well i have friends in the circle that either do one or both and they have their reasons why they do it. my mother thinks i do those things and the sort but i am the oddest out of the bunch.

i asked my mother what she thought of my friends and what they did and she didnt want to say the word 'scum' but it was there and she explained why its important to choose your friends wisely. my point of view of people are different from my mother and i since i never look at my friends as scum but people. it chipped my heart to hear my mom use words other than 'scum' to explain what my friends were to her but she was only worried.

ranting about the bad and good sides of my friends i told her that she was the one who told me to accept people and help them..Christian family..and that everyone deserves second chances. she was flustered because of how she never realized that i was maturing and holding on to morals i had learned during my childhood and sadly i wish i could have embraced those morals sooner to save a precious friendship..well you know even if you use up those two chances you make more and keep fighting if you truly want it that bad.

going back to the conversation..mother was just concerned about how my social life was and how i have been adapting to everyone around me..it been well living here in my new home and im ready to venture off after senior year. the conversation ended after my mom told me to just keep being true to yourself and what you really want in life.

**to the reader..if you think my friends are scum then get this..they were the ones who helped create the organization, Miracle Makers, in our school and they all are officers who lead and even though you think they live sad lives they live it with people like them and myself who all have problems no matter what age or status of this world..

"We are humbled to serve those who need help from rich to poor, home to homeless, those who like us to those who truly hate us, we will serve them since we are all Scum of this world and we are all born from a Miracle."

-Miracle Makers 2011

~this is our 2011 banner and what we stand for and take in the fact that you can lie to everyone around you but you can never lie to yourself about your issues..have a nice day~ wink