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WHY! WHY!!!! WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE SO CLOSE!!!!!
5 bloody ******** days... then im turning 17 this sucks
i hate my bday.... but then there's where my friends wont stop bothering me about it... but BAH!!! its probably the only time i get to ask my mum to buy me alcohol.... whee alcohol!!!!! hopefully none of get sick... oh that we are really loud **glares at child** but anywho... arg another thing y i hate my bday cuz since i failed twice that im older then everyone... i FEEL SO ******** OLD!!!!!


u know the saying "when s**t hits the fan ur in trouble" or something like it. Well this past weekend while i was cleaning the basement with me mum and upstairs on my mums cpu my bro was msg her well it seems that his gf is ******** around on him... **b***h** right well... he wants to move back home since he cant land a job and things arnt working out with hes gf... and hes at rock bottem with his emotions... i have never seen my bro in this much pain... when i was talking to him on the phone... he sounded.. dead... my bro does not sound like that... i was scared... first time to be scared for a persons well being but then again he is my older brother... and i want to have an older brother until im 30! I will not stand aside and see my brother be crushed by some slut or a mind ******** person... Ihave enough with 3 other friends feeling all like this. ANd i so do not need this not now... i will not talerate with this kind of bullshit... yes FOLKS LIFE IS s**t! its not the most prettiest thing u'll ever have to deal with. And obvisouly it is not fair cuz if it was i so wouldnt be here right now talking about this... plus i wouldnt of met my best buds of helped alot of ppl. Even tho ppl say I'm evil and heartless at times I DO have a ******** heart my mum says so **lol**. And No john *BTV, not squrrel* if ur rich it does not mean that u have to be happy... u could be dirt poor also to achive happiness. ******** y the hell am i talking about this.. oh yeah im in a irrateded mood and i am fed up of ppl saying "would some one miss me if i did?" Or " Hey, my lifes s**t im a go kill myself" Well looky here ******** ur not the only one that wants to kill em selfs ur not the only one that lives a misrable life. I do too... but i deal with it i dont complain... u just look at life an laugh.. who cares wat ppl think! ******** EM! Who cares of wat ppl think of wat u do! ******** EM! Who cares if u do thinks that ppl dont approve of! ******** EM! If someone bitchs at u cuz another said something wrong! ******** EM! that my friend i am refuring to Raye who cares wat amanda say's! ******** HER! **not in that sence** Not like ur gonna read this anyway... PPl say that their lives suck... want me tell u wat sucks i will

A friend of mine... i consider her a younger sister... her grandparents beat her, her father neglects her. She's been aboused every possable way. She bearly eats right cuz her grandmother cant do s**t for her. And they say shes on a diet BULLSHIT is wat i say. They dont tell anything to her... friday her grandfather died and she finds out sunday... she found out that out when her grandma was on the phone speaking in italian. She never is allowed to go vist a friend, she never had a party. She NEVEr WENT to one. Her room is like s**t! SHe has no privacy! She has 2 walls that are made of cement another wall is like... ******** cardboard her door or i should say the ******** 4th wall is A bloody door thats 30cm off the ******** floor and her younger bro can look all he wants or whome ever! Thats just disgusting i say! They threaten her saying if she dont pass they'll stick her in a foster home! WTF! this is so retarded... u think ur life is ******** miserable think again! some ppl have way worse then u think... cuz Valkyrie **thats her nick** has been miserable since the day i meet her... and she's always depressed no matter how much i try to make her feel better... Like i've said she's like a younger sister to me... even tho i dont have one.


My daily rant....
-Lilith-