My secret is out. Everyone knows about my pregnancy thanks to a slip up on Nataro’s part. Well I didn’t expect to keep this a secret forever, and I know how happy Nataro was to hear that I was pregnant. I didn’t even tell him as first, but thanks to a careful guidance of my friend Airashii Enjuku I was able to come out with it.
Don’t get me wrong! I wasn’t upset about me being pregnant…more surprised then anything. I guess it was more that I felt it was too soon. I mean with my divorce, condition, and troubles with baby Raves perhaps it is too soon.
There is, however, a hint of anger among some people in Nataro’s family about my secret. I know I shouldn’t have kept the baby a secret from my soon-to-be family. Yet it’s my business and I wasn’t ready to tell. Though the feelings are targeted at my Nataro then me. I have been avoiding the Spot most of the time. I see Nataro late at night when no one is there. During the day I am living in a new area with Era.
The fighting between Ryu and Nataro has ceased. An alliance was created between them or more forced. I don’t like this alliance one bit, but the fighting has stopped so what more can I ask for?
On further note, since the violence is gone I have finally agreed to marry Nataro. We have set a date already and will be married the 14th of February. The only other detail I have planned for the wedding ahead of time is asked Airashii to be my Maid of Honor. I don’t plan to have any other bride’s maids though I might have a flower girl. I know that Nataro’s granddaughter is well suited for this part.
I feel like I need to speak with Ryu one more time. It’s in more sense to say good-bye properly after all that has happened. Moving forward but sometimes I am still caught in the past.
I’ve been having more problems with Raves. He has been staying with me since the fighting had started between Ryu and Nataro. Raves showed a lot of violent behavior so, I often took him and Era to stay with a “Calmer” known as Dora. Well the other day Era took Raves out for a walk not far from our new home. She overheard him talking to himself.
Apparently, what Era heard wasn’t meant to be known….ever. Raves threw Era back a distance causing an injury to her head. I know how it sounds. Raves only a baby hurling his aunt through the air, but no one has really seen the kind of power my son posses. Era is all right she was more shaken up by the attack.
Raves has grown tormented over the fact that Ryu and I are not together. He has been working, plotting trying to get his father to come back to me. Nothing has worked. The only results is that he is seriously hurting me. For example, I am not responsible, as I thought, for the lost of my eye.
Not that I blame him, but he needs to understand. Ryu and I will never reunite. What is done is done and restoring would be difficult. There is too much history between Ryu and I. Us returning would damage us further.
Raves ran off after the incident with Era. I tried to track him, but with his invisibility powers it’s hard for me to track him. Especially since my senses don’t work as well as they should. I believe Ryu has the boy. When I see them again I am going to make a rash decision. The fact is Raves fears his father and would never do anything to anger him or I am just a terrible mother.
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