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so, my schools dance was on friday, right? I was feeling really bummed and everything 'cause i was watching this guy i had convinced myself i had a crush on (not telling who) slow dance with this whore.
Then, the dance was over, and i was walking out, and this guy named Austin was like: will you go out with me
And i was like: sorry?
And then, for no ******** reason, i said yea. I feel so disgusted that i said yea, because, austin is, to be brutally frank, pathetic. i mean, hes cute if you dont know him, but once you do, oh god.
So i was hyped up, cause i hadnt stopped to think about what just happened, and over the weekend, i waz like: Holy s**t, i made a huge mistake
So, on monday, i get to school, and i'm coaching myself. Im going: It's better to be a cruel, lying b***h than a cowardly manipulative one.
I can live with myself being cruel and lying, but if i knew i was cowardly or overly manipulative (which i might be... ninja ) but anyways, i decide that im going to tell him its a religious problem.
WHICH IT IS.
Just to clairify.
I'm an Aethiest, right, and my patron goddess is Artemis, so i have decided there is no ******** way i will ever have a relationship with a guy. And it doesnt hurt that i dont like him at all.
So during PE, i jog up to him and am like "Sorry, i cant go out with you, its a religious problem, friends?"
And he shrugged and was like, sure.
And Guitar_Playin_Freak had talked to him earlier and asked if he really liked me, and he said yea, which made me feel like a guilty b***h. but ya'know.
TOO BAD.
'nyway.
Now my life seems like a soap opera, which is fine by me, hell knows i need more exitement in my life. one of my best friends is liked by 2 guys, and one she liked back last year, but never asked her out, even tho they knew they liked eachother. he still likes her, by the way. and then this other guy who she had a little crush on, told her that he like the most popular girl in our class, and she was bummed you know, but then, on AIM he asked her out
And he asked her again in PE.
Why do all the interesting stuff happen in PE?
She just turned red, and i was at the other side of the gym and Melissa told me that my friend (what the hell, charlene.) needed me, so i go over there, and i ask her if she needs air.
And i find that i really need to step outside as well because my "Ex" has just arrived late. so we go out there and think, and then Nina (the popular girl who actually is really nice) comes and she starts talking to charlene about her friend problems. i kind of move away so they can have privacy, and Nina asks me how to handle a problem with her friends.
And im staring at her thinking, "Am i like a phsyciatrist now?" because me and Nina are not really close friends and confidants if you know what i mean.
I've been hearing peoples problems more and more now, its like they need to tell someone everything, and they've decided to all tell ME.
I dont complain tho.
Anyways, Charlene and I stay out there until PE's over, and then skipping ahead to lunch, i sit with Charlene and our friend Vanessa.
Charlenes telling me how she wishes that Darnell (the guy who liked her last year, and who still does) asked her out. Because we know that he still likes her, because she passes him notes, and he isnt in the least shy about telling the truth. but he WONT ASK HER OUT
So i go to bug Darnell, because i'm sick of all the candy and everything that Blake (the other guy who likes her) is sending her through Melissa.
And i go talk to him and (oh joy!) Austins sitting with him as well, but thats okay cause my friend Janna is sitting next to them too, so that gives me a good excuse to go over there, not just to bug darnell.
And i start talking to darnell, resisting the urge to slap andrew whose tryin to feed me goldfish, and tell him what charlenes told me
I am not a b***h who goes around telling everyones buisness. i might be a bit nosy, but i will back off when warned. i used my judgemental skills, and decided that darnell needed to know how charlene felt, and she hadnt explicitly forbidden me to tell him.
He kind of tries to act like its no biggie while im talking to him, but i can read people better than that. hes happy, and excited. he gets up and walks to the gym, but i make him promise me to think about asking charlene out.
And now i go back to charlene's table.
Charlene's like: where you talking to darnell? What were you talking about?
I was about to answer, seriously i was, but then i remembered something.
"I have to go Charlene!" I say, and get up to walk over to Blakes table.
Blake isnt a bad guy really, and he doesnt know about Darnell. i dont know how to tell him, so i decide to sit down and listen to his side of the story.
I get the overall impression that darnell's better, to sum it up.
Thats enough for now.
 Kantessa · Thu Dec 16, 2004 @ 12:27am · 0 Comments |
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