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I don't want to forget you.
Not the taste of your lips
Or the puff of your cheeks when you get mad

I don't want to forget the spark
That made me alive
The fire that I thought could never die

I HATE these...
Knowing that this is what you want me to do
To cut ties and walk away

Act as if nothing ever happened
That your name wasn't the thing I whispered softly at night
Just so I could wake up happy

Let everything that we made die
Silent and Rage never be a thing
And let an Emperor rule lonely on his throne

It hurts so much
Trying each day to pull each letter of yours out of my heart
Only to feel them reattach after each surgery

How unfair it is to wake up each night
Wanting you more and more
Knowing you wake up, hating me more and more

The intense desire to be the Fixer
Yet crippled by the fact
I was the Destroyer

Deeply I try to do as you request
Just every river
Leads me back to you

Words echoing, "It's not giving up, just accepting it"
But do you think
This brash idiot could accept losing you?!

I want to cry
I want to die
Anything but to lose you

Breaking my mind
Torn by your wishes
And my desires

Growing harder and harder
Each sunrise to keep sane
Each sunset to remain here

I want this horrible nightmare
For the both of us
To finally end

Not being able to withstand
The pain and lies
Anymore...

Couldn't you have taught me...
To not love so much...
How to forget when it's time to go

Trapped by the very thing you can't stomach anymore
Hurt by the very thing I can't have anymore
Stuck in the worst place;
A past I can never forget
A present only existing because of you
A future that can never happen

But I guess it's all fine
For you say
"You'll get use to it"

... I guess ...