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(Angst Incarnate...)

So let's review Kage's world. Let's start with the standard issues of someone around my age.

School--Still got years to go. The Dean is riding my a** to perform well like I'm some sort of daterape victim. The school doesn't want to give me my chance anymore. My record looks so bad that most other universities don't want to give me a chance either. I want pursue computers and I've been thinking of tech school, but my father would refuse to support me if I did that. Which brings me to..

Parents--Yep...still live at home with them. Still mooch off them so I am sometimes still subject to their rules. Oh they try to be a bit lenient but after a while they can't help but fall back into role. My father is an overbearing a*****e with all the money and thus all the control. My mother sympathizes with me but is too busy or caught up to do anything. They need me to start making money to bring back to the house. And thus...

Money--Yeah...I don't have any. No luck with employment while I'm taking classes. Only places available want certified students. I don't count as a certified student. Few others are willing to be flexible, or have simply turned me down. I could go to an agency, but I need to look nice and I can't even afford some nice looking clothes. My only chance was a small tx return but that got taken by the government before I even got it, thanks to dad's mistakes. We all know what's left.

Relationships--Haha...the r word. Well school gets in the way of me being around for people. My parents barely understand distance relationships and don't want to support me. I've dodged two arranged marriages from my father, as well as him setting me up on very bad dates. A lack of money makes it hard for me to really treat a woman, and sometimes it feels embarassing. All the pressure and issues I face make me question my worth and distract my mind. I'm usually not so apocalyptic in thought but honestly I just can't seem to overcome this obstacle of lack of self worth and lack of commitment. I've given all that I have in trying to lift others up out of their misery. If you want me, come get me. I have pulled you from dirt only to slip and fall in the effort. Deliver me then in turn and help me rise, that we may walk through the wasteland together.

Yeah yeah dramatics aside I am really busy and frustrated lately. I don't mean to cause any of you grief but I'm not gonna hide the truth. Trust me I got plenty more problems where these came from, and some new twist bullshit seems to happen every day. Walk with me, drag me as I lose consciousness. Take me somewhere I can breathe again...