I've met many people throughout my lifetime whether in person or through online communities. Many of these people have become some of my very closest of friends and are loved by me as family. However, never in my life did i ever think I'd meet the love of my life through the internet. In honesty, I always felt it was impossible until now.
I used to, and still play, an online mmorpg game called Fiesta Online. When I first started I was around the age of 19 and just getting started in college. I was playing on this online community, gaia online, for the longest when I saw the ad for Fiesta Online pop up on the left side of my screen. I decided to check it out. Before I knew it I had fallen in love with the game. It was the first time I could play online in such a way and still get to talk and play with other people. I made friends quickly and not long after I joined the game I managed to make it into a guild called Twilight Knights run by Aura. It was a nice guild built for helping new members in the game. I never talked with Aura much, but we did talk enough to be considered acquaintances. Of course, as time went by we became more friendly with each other, kind of like sisters. Well, after a certain level I started having major problems with lag on the game. ^^'' It made it impossible for me to play. So in the end I wound up having to leave the mmorpg game that I had come to love so much and the many friends I had made on the game including Aura.
After about a year, I finally managed to get a new laptop and was able to play the game again. It was not long before I managed to make more friends, one named Kenkaku who I became very close to. I played with him for quite a while before I pulled him to a new server called Epith. I wanted a fresh start since I realized my old character was a bit....messed up on build. Of course I never expected to run into old friends on the new server, but as I made it to level 20 in the game, my name was displayed on the screen in congratulations. Right at that moment was when I received a whisper from a guy named Xepher claiming to be Aura. I was shocked and excited to have been able to meet her/him again. I was told of him being a guy and we talked quite a lot about his life and things that were going on with each other. From this point on my friendship with Xepher, a.k.a Aura, grew at a miraculous pace. We played together, talked almost daily, and always enjoyed each others company. It came to the point where I felt more than just a mere friendship building between us. However, the day i tried to make it known did not turn out bad but not good either. In the end we both confessed to having loved the other as siblings though deep within both our hearts we really loved each other more. In the end I wound up dating a few guys I played with one including his good friend irl. All the while though, Xepher and i always remained very close friends. We were always there for each other, well the best we could through the net. ^ ^ We even planned a trip to Disney World together, Xepher, his friend (my bf at the moment), and Kenkaku (a friend of mine). We had lots of fun, but even there I knew that my feelings for Xepher had not changed, but I never perused it because I cherished him too much to lose him over a unrequited love. Not that I did not love his friend either, but sometimes the heart knows more than we ourselves do. I buried my feelings of love for Xeph and kept my loyalty to his friend.
After Disney World, we all went our separate ways. We lived on different sides of the country, Xeph and my bf at the time. They lived on the West coast while I on the East. However despite the distance we maintained contact. During our distance Xeph started to have a lot of troubles at home. He would talk to me about it often. I became very worried and wanted to get him out of there as soon as possible. So I came up with the idea of him coming to live with me. I also offered the opportunity to my bf at the time, who refused at first but changed his mind when he knew Xeph was coming. My bf came first. While he was here I began to realize that my bf really did not love me like he said he did and I was quickly falling out of love with him. Despite that I tried hard to keep the quickly dying fire between me and my bf alive in futility. By the time Xeph made it down here, that fire was merely a smoke rising from its wick. Problems arose between my bf and me and the only person i could turn to was Xeph which caused jealousy for my bf, who locked himself in his room and stopped speaking to me. It was not long before the relationship I had with the friend fell apart. It was a hard hit, but during the drama, Xeph and i finally got around to admitting our feelings for the other. I guess I should be grateful to the friend because, if he had not forced Xeph and i into a corner where we had no other choice but to talk with each other...I probably would have never known that I still loved xeph very much and he loved me as well. Even after the friend left, Xeph and I remained strong and our love grew. It only took a few weeks for Xeph to ask me for my hand in marriage. Without hesitation I accepted. Though I feel regrets for the way our love came to be, I do not regret falling in love with this man. He is more than I could ever hope to have gained and i feel I do not deserve one hair on his head. I love him very much. I am a very lucky girl. :3 Well that is my story...^^'' Full of drama and sins but :3 i cannot say that I am not happy at how things turned out.
Angel Serene Community Member 
|
|
