my heart pounds a i think of him. he told me to give him some space. so i would. but my heart hurted to be away. when i was with him, i felt like it was a dream. but now christmas is here. as i now have a choice. and it lies with my gift im gonna give him. adn the worst he could say is no? right? but if it gose badly. it could end us. PERMANETLY. i close my eyes. and tears slip away. the only thing now. is to choose.