Okay. Id rather keep my friendship than try something that may ruin it. It could happen, only if you try. If I try, It will end in disaster. I have made my plan. I know you will not like it. This is why I kept apologizing to you. When I tell you, You will be mad at me. I hope not. It is only temporary. No, I am not staying here, I promise. I am going to stay with a friend. 2 that you know of. I've been thinking about this alot and how it would affect you. How if would affect me as well. Do not worry, I will still be able to see you like all the time. weekends, anytime im not working, sleeping, or studying. I will be in lafayette (thank GOD).
Please dont be mad at me, plz. I am sorry. I am for sure that when you read this you will be so angry. Upset. But please know, its just for a bit okay? When I get there i need to re-adjust to it. The pace and the people okay? I hope you know I love you bunches.
This is why I have been so confused, upset and angry at myself.
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