I'm not even sure what I want to write ... I just feel that I need to write ... Night loneliness and depression coming over me again. I'm wondering if I should try to go to sleep. After all, it is very late ... There is no winning this battle at night. I just have to accept that. I'm not going to win at night, but the morning comes again and life is born again in the daylight. Hope exists in the daylight for me.
A clock is ticking inside me, my expiration is drawing closer and closer, I feel. Hope is in short supply. I have no long-lasting vision or goals that I really believe I can accomplish ... where is my place in life? What is the niche I am supposed to fill? I am alone ...
Funny how music can make a difference ... I just started listening to a sort of up techno dance song a minute ago, and I can feel my mood lifting. I wonder why? I'm so easily influenced, but as long as it's for the better, I'm happy about it. smile
"Paradise" by E-Type
Ha, the song (below) I was going to use for my roleplay character Elise in her "crazy" days as "evil Elise" will fit Katri, my newest rp character, very well. smile
"The Predator" by E-Type
Music can distract me for awhile sometimes, as long as it's not overly sad ...
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