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(The Rundown...)

Yet another "what's new" journal entry. Seems like I got something goin on all the time, eh? Well the usual ups and downs are still there. A few downs:

Broke currently. The whole family. I'm not entirely worried so much as I am annoyed and ready to do something about it. What, I don't really know yet sweatdrop Mom fears we'll lose our house. I say God's will will be done. I don't think He intends for us to lose anything, except our fear and despair. It's not easy but I'd rather my challenge be to simply stop worrying and rely on Him rather than attempt to live my life my way entirely within my own means...that's MUCH harder...

Relationships flicker and fail all around me. I feel for you all and I know what it's like now. My hopes and prayers go out to all my close friends struggling in one way or another. No matter what happens, make sure those dear to you know how much they mean to you. Life is too short to make rifts and chasms between people.

Ever been really burnt out? Yeah that's me in a nutshell. I can feel it happening all over again. Not so much stress as it is...well, yeah I guess it's stress. I take so much from people and then come home to my own. I figure what little fun I can have with my friends should be enough right? Am I asking for too much? Am I slipping into a watered down emo state? My life isn't all THAT bad...I mean it could be MUCH worse. Yet I get into funks and I get upset and sometimes I can't stand the circumstances I'm in. Who fights for me after all my fighting is exhausted? It's not that I want anyone to be a hero for me, that's not my motivation...I just wish for at least a little while that everything was great for everyone...and I could relax. Yeah...weird, ne? neutral

Now some ups....

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uhh...God loves me? I have friends and loved ones who care? My parents...well...my mom at least is there for me. My computer was saved from viral whatnot. Yeah...s'all good right? Right??

Anyhow, Kage is gonna be a bit evil for a while. He feels the friends and people he can really connect with have disappeared from the bar and fight circuit so he feels out of place with all the kiddies and new blood. Besides, he sure can make a good a*****e role sometimes xd God Bless, peeps.