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I feel alone...
I don't want to be intoxicated, I don't wanna be surrounded, I don't want monies, I don't want power, all I want is to not be alone, but I suppose that's too much to ask for and far to cliche`, oh well, maybe next time, but a...s of the moment, I'm wondering how people managed to create stupidity and hypocrisy as great as the one who understands nothing but wants to understand all, a cliche`, even for a bad movie, I see things that aren't there, maybe I drank too much maybe I'm worried, faced with sudden realisation that ghosts aren't real, or that when I do something it takes others work to fix, I lay here now, out of the corner of my eye looking at a cat that isn't there, feeling sorry for my self, thinking of all the other things that have happened to people with much worse lives than I, with real reasons to feel alone, with famine, and distraught, all around them, and all they can do is smile, while I, some over protected, over appreciated little d**k hole, with no problems, one who makes problems, messes if you will, expects simpathy, or understanding, understanding everyone has, but I'm to blind to see it. I feel alone, but not because nobody is their, but because I can't see those who are. So I say to myself, write a journal, maybe someone you want to read it will read it, someone who you know, but they don't know you. Someone new. Or maybe people who know you and you know them, it doesn't make much of a difference does it? no, in the end you'll end up being stupid, and hurting another, or they'll end up smart and hurting you. Knowing who'll do what doesn't help when you don't know why.
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