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Alright so have you ever woke up one day knowing that you aren't in a place you can call your own home? Not like staying at a friends house but your in your own house. You wake up day after day and you don't have that feeling you could really call that house your own home. Or maybe you have lived with a person that is a real jerk and puts you in a side of depression. Maybe that person puts so much tension on you and everyone in that house that you can't even bare to do anything. Don't you think there would be a whole lot of negative energy? Well wouldn't you think its hard waking up everyday and knowing that your family has no money and is struggling to put food on the table. Have you ever woke up one day and looked at your old pair of jeans and say, "I can always get a new pair?" But really your just saying that to make yourself feel better because you know your family cant afford new jeans. Or a new shirt. Well times are hard and it's especially hard for me because that's my everyday life right there. Many kids at my school can just go buy a new pair of jeans but I can't. My family needs every dollar they make. And I wish I did have money because I would be able to do everything that my friends do or what they do for me. I would finally be able to return the favor. But sometimes I just wanna cry because it can be so hard on me. Unless you have gone through this you will never understand how hard my life is for me and my family. My family tries to do everything that they can to make me and my brothers happy. We can only do a little at a time but hopefully soon my parents will make plenty of money so we can get out of this house. We'd be happy and would be able to do our traditions and anything else we used to do. I miss the old days. Where I could wake up and look and see all of my stuff everywhere. It was a place I could call my own. Because It was my family's home and now our home will soon be in a great place. A place I've always wanted to be. So I pray everyday and hope that things get better(: