Well yeah, my suspicions of him feeling the same way about me were true after all. He does love me. He told me a bunch of times yesterday when I dropped him off at the armory. We decided to stay together while he's deployed. It's going to be hard, but I know I can do it. I think our relationship will actually get stronger and it will give him a chance to grow up and become the man he should be. He wants to move in together when he gets back so I'm going to try to look forward to that. A year is a while... but it's not forever and as long as I keep myself busy he'll be back before I know it. I know that we'll be able to live together too. We've lived together twice now, the first time he had to leave because of Bryan, but we got along well. Then just recently when we were living together at his grandparents apartment everything worked so well. We get along amazingly. We argue and pick on each other, but not in a bad way. We've been friends for 3 years now, so everything about us... is so... natural. Even sexually, the first time it wasn't even a little awkward, everything was just... so ... right. Maybe our accidental relationship... wasn't really an accident. Everything happens for a reason right? I'm not saying I'm ready to spend the rest of my life with him, but I do see our relationship progressing. It has so much already. It only makes sense that our love will get stronger and when we're ready for something like that, we'll go for it. I'm getting way ahead of myself of course, I'm just fuming a little. Everything is really depressing and confusing right now. I'm just doing what I can to hang in there for him and our relationship. I love him so much.... I just hope he comes back alright.
I was thinking though. If we get married, the army will pay for my school and I'll have bomb health insurance. Just a thought. Hahaha.
 Bunn-eh · Mon Apr 20, 2009 @ 12:28am · 0 Comments |
