The further this relationship has gone on... The more I realize, maybe all of it wasn't a mistake. Maybe he was supposed to be the rebound guy... but he's not, and now I have to watch someone I really love leave me because he's forced by the government to go half way around the world. It makes me sick to my stomach that our arrogant egotistical government thinks that sending troops over to a shitty country is going to fix it. How ******** dumb do you have to be to think that killing innocent people and destroying homes and churches is going to help even a tiny bit. ******** BULLSHIT! Now I'm losing my best friend and lover.. and it's been keeping me awake at night. Everything just started getting good too. He's showing the person I always knew was hiding just beneath the surface. Nobody believed me, but I really know who he is. I'm sure I'm meet another guy some day, but I really hope that we get back together once he gets back. It's highly unlikely... but I'm always going to love him. I've loved him for a long time now.. I started having feelings for him since before we even worked together at SEARS, hahaha. I'm a loser I know. FML.
Bunn-eh · Wed Apr 01, 2009 @ 10:51pm · 0 Comments |