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/bow head/ evreyones a person. evreytime someone dies, a whole section of what could have been you life shuts down. You can't go back, you can't undo time...nothing's ever the same. even if you never knew them because you can never know what it would have been like if you'd known them.

you try and seperate yourself from the incedent if you hadn't know them...but when your friends show you a glimps of what that person was to them...it all comes crashing down, the pretences, the feigned indiffrence. you can no longer just brush it off...because it is a PERSON. you relise that His name was Jesse. That he had a boyfriend, just like you do. That he LIVED, he breathed and he walked...and he talked. he had a personality. That he was a good person, and that his death devistated so many people.

You start to cry at the lost opourtunities, he could have been a good friend. he could have been your best friend, he could have been the one to help you up when you fall down. to help you out of a mess. But now he can't be...not because he wouldn't have wanted it...but because he's gone. He doesn't walk anymore, he doesn't breath or talk...but he does have a personality...he lives on in evreyone who knew him...but not you...because you didn't take time out of your own life to get to know him...because you never looked up when he walked by...you never knew he was their...

You can only look on at the sceen, see his boyfriends haunted face. His boyfriend saw the incedent...he and Jesse were about to go to a valentines dinner and took a short cut acrost the highway... and now jesse is dead. gone. and josh saw the entire thing...he can never have his loved one back...he can never have Jesse back...you look on and relise what a fool you've been...that Jesse can't live on...you look at your own boyfriend and wonder if soemthing will happen to him to.

you get scared,frozen in terror... their is nothing you can do...he's gone, you never knew him...and now your terrified that you'll lose your loved one the same way...You cry...their is nothing you can do...he's gone...and you relise how fragile life is...that anything could happen...to anyone.

You can die...will someone care? will someone learn the same lesson if you do? Are you going to lose the one you loved?...will you see it happen? All of these are questions no one can answer...

So remember Jesse. remember the life you could have had. Remember him as you hold you loved ones. your boyfriend...your husband, you brother your sister, you mother your father...remember his mortality. And what he took with him when he left, and what he left behind.

/looks up, tears streaming down my face/ Evreyone's a person. It doesn't matter if their gay, straight, black, or white. evreyones a person...and no one should waste their life. In a perfect world no one would die young...or of sickness...no one would be hit by cars...and no one would ever die in pain...but they do...remember that. tell the ones that are preciouse to you that you love them...and hold them close to your heart...you never know when you won't get to.

R.I.P Jesse
2-15-09
7:00pm