My name
Today I relised something... I can't say my own name. It feels posionious on my lips, like a forein stranger in an unwelcomeing land... For a while I though I was going insain, and that I was changing, now I know, I'm the same good old Ali, but also I'm something else. I now realise that I'm also Alison... Good ol'Alison.. A pretty name, I won't be modest about that.. But Its not the me most of my friends know. I realised tonight, when saying bye to a dear friend of mine that I have two personailties in a since, the good girl one, ALison, then the one all my old friends back home know, the one they miss, Ali... At first I just overlooked the fact that him, a great friend of mine would call me alison.. then it hit me, im not different, my name is, my true name, i started changing when i started to go by alison, now i know that i am both, they are two sides... when i read that he called me alison, it stung... when he gets back on i must adress this problem... but for now i must just live on, and survive, some will call me alison, but the real will call me ali...
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