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I've been thinking, and as you all know, that's never good
Well, I've been thinking, and I've desided that I hate being here, I have no friends in this state that I love like I love my other friends, I mean not love love, but the kind that I can trust my life with, that I can talk to, that know they can trust me, that are good genuan friends, and I hate it! I hate it more than anything, I just want a good old fashion hug after I've spilt my guts out to someone, I want to feel there arms around me, and there hands patting my back, telling me its alright, thats its all in the past, i want a real hug, i want someone here to look me in the eye, and there eyes tell me that they love me, and i want them to mean it, not pity lies that i get, not someone who thinks they do but will turn on me in a second, i want a real good damn friend... i hate conneticult, its full of stuck up snobs! i feel lonely here, and i dont like it, i feel sad, and lonely... but you know, ive also learned something, lonelyness kills, and it kills slowly and painfully, and well everyone, im slowly dying, im dying of lonelyness, and im dying inside of insainness that being lonely has caused... i know i have no right to complain, there are others out there who have it worse, but im sick of staying somewhat quite, i want a real god damn friend! am i selfish for wanting this... probally, but that i can live with
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