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I think I shall die. I'm not eating because i feel like I'm gonna spew chunks. My boyfriend, who I love very much, just dumped me. I've been tying to make him behave and not skip classes, but it wasn't working. His mom tells him he's worthless and won't amount to anything and is throwing his life away, and that makes me angry because he is awsome and has the potential to do anything he wants. He doesn't think he can. SO, I was angry because I know that he is better than whta he and his mom think, and I was disappointed he was proving her right. I saw him at the end of school, but had to leave to catch my ride and didn't have much time to talk because I had to try to escape my science teacher who wast talking to me about a book we'reboth reading/ I had to try to stuff HW from all of my classes into my backpack. I hurried to him, and had to make it short. He asked what was wrong, and I said " I'm disappointed." "With what?" "You, I'm disappointed in you because you stopped doing some stuff, but you started up again. You were making progress, but you're back at square 1 again. I'm sorry, but I have to go. You have detention tonight, don't you?" "Yea." "Sorry, but I have to get going now. Bye." Then I left, and as I walked away I realized it sounded like I wanted to break up with him, but I wasn't sure how long to wait. I got home, thought everything was okay so I went to sleep until my mom woke me up for dinner so we could go to the place I use wifi on my laptop. I got ready, then thought it'd only take 5 minutes to set things right. It didn't, he broke up with me and now I've been crying on and off since then, and I feel like I'll puke if I eat so I haven't eaten for over a day (as I type this) . I called him over and over, and he didn't answer. To add to this story, I know he likes this other chick, which I'd been worried about. I finally got a hold of him, and founfd out she asked him out, and he said yes. I'm waiting for phone call I should have received a while ago, but now I'm going to be self-destructive and call him. I don't know what to do, because I love him so much. He said he wants to break up so he cna change for me, but I'm going to tell him he's just fine, needs to breaks up with that stupid Raweehhhhhr, and get with me and we'll try to act like it never happened. Let's face it, I'm going to say and do things he doesn't like, and he'll do and say things he doesn't like. But we can't break up everytime that happens. I don't know; I'll try to post again after I call or something. AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GOING TO DDDIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
BUT SHALL NOOOOTTTTTT BECAUSE I'M NOT EMOOOOO