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I had an ok Thanksgiving with just my mom and myself. We were/are both sick though. It was lonely. I wanted to call all my friends and say hello, but I know none of them would answer and I think it would be rude to call when they're all having fun with their family. They never answer. I'm beginning to become my old depressed self of 7th grade. I hadn't been depressed for a long time, very sad but not depressed. At the beginning of 8th grade I had something, no, someone who made me happy no matter what. Recently I was struck with the fact that that person doesn't want me, we'll never happen again, and I can forget about them. Those who personally know me know what I'm talking about. So anyways, I've been really depressed lately and it hurts more than it ever has. In addition, my friend is being stupid but as I try to talk sense to her she gets angry at me even though she admits I am right. I don't know. I'll just have to bear the pain and smile even though I feel like screaming so my friends won't be concerned. I wonder if this is karma for something I am to do in the future, because i've never done anything so horrible to deserve all that has happened in the past 3 years. I had a few months of happiness with that person, but their gone now, never to come back. I need to move on as much as I can so I can try to be happy, but no one compares to that person. No one.