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I can't stop the tears from pouring down my face. It's only been three years, but it feels like forever.
Today, JUne 29, 2008 around 2:45, I got the call.
My beloved pet, Miko, died.
She was six, turning seven August first. A beautiful dark brindle greyhound baby. I loved her with all my heart and now she's gone.
On Friday, June 27, We couldn't get her to get up. We tried using treats and her leash, but she wouldn't move. We called the vet and got her right in. SHe had a high fever and her potasium was low, nothing else was seen. THey put her on fluids and gave her penicilin to fight the virus. SHe seemed to be responding, but the vets didn't want to send her home, still not know what was wrong. So they kept her over night. They ran tests, but nothing showed up. Saturday they did x-rays, but nothing showed. so they said they were keeping her over the weekend. They called this morning saying they wanted to do exploritory surgery to see if they could find what was wrong. My mom said okay. THat's when I really started to worry. A fever I could deal with. I guessed it was just some virus that she needed to work out and she'd be fine. I came home with my little bother and my mom was on the phone. I sat down as he began to play the playstaion. I got a bad feeling in my gut telling me something was wrong. THe moment the phone was hung up she said: "Miko is gone."
The tears began. SHe said that the vet told her that she had found cancer in Miko's bowel and speline. and that it was better if just didn't wake up, not even to say good-bye. We cried for a long time. I couldn't even get through a phone conversation without busting into tears.
How could it have possibly happened?! She had been perfectly healthy except for colitus a few weeks ago. I still can't believe she's gone. I find myself thinking I hear her walking around or I hear her collar jingling. Now all i have is trying to comfort myself knowing she didn't suffer long. I have no idea what cancer it was or how long she had it, but all i know is that I'm crying even as I type and really wish I could get somewhere where I could just cry or run or just get away from it for now.