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Somethings have apparently became easier said than done.

But i'm guessing that's common knowledge to everyone already.

I've apparently found my talent for writing again. Not sure how or why it's back, but i'm glad. I've worked my whole life, practically, on poetry, and didn't want to see it go away.

*sigh* I had this already explained and everything, but then, as the blonde that i am, i canceled out of the tab before it could save.

So, i'm dealing with the regular drama. I won't dwell on most of them, but the main topics are:

1 - Matthew (ex) and Jeremy (current)
2 - Friends going emo but being saved
3 - Leaving but coming back once everyone is gone
4 - New friends that scare me in a sense

--1--

I'm not sure but i think me and Matthew are friends again. It's only cause of Hannah. She's my friend, his cousin, and she asked me to. But, i'm scared of what might happen between me and him. I'm with Jeremy. I don't think Matthew gets that.

--2--

Hannah. *sigh*. Matthew told me that she almost went suicidal. But, "luckily", he talked her out of it. I'm glad he did, but it would of been better if he told me. Or anyone, for that matter. This scares me of what she might do over the summer when we won't be able to check up on her all the time. This is the one and only time i'm grateful i didn't kill Matthew.

--3--

I'm going to London. I'll be gone for a week there, and then i'm going to Washington (state) and will stay there for the rest of the summer. I won't see anybody from here at all. Then, when i come back for my tenth grade year, it might be my last year with them. I want to go, but it's one of those things that you wish you could have things go your way.

--4--

Over the weekend that just happened, i made a few new friends on gaia. Some of them are great. Funny, and interesting. Then there's vampire559182. Don't get me wrong, he seems like a great person. Adjectives couldn't describe him good enough. It's just,i wonder about him. Who is he really?