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You would expect that the second step would be to talk to people about what you're thinking. That is, if you're a logical person with an IQ higher than 50.

But it's easier said than done.

I feel as if i do talk about what's really on my mind, things will change. Will the change for the better, i don't know. That's the part i'm scared of.

I'm scared that if i tell what's exactly on my mind, people will think diferently of me.

I've always expressed what i felt through my poetry.

Though, now it feels as if i can't do that anymore. I've been writing poetry like crazy lately. About one a day. I used to be able only to write one a week or so.

It's cause of 7ai.

We've been sending millions of messages back and forth, as well as poems. His poetry is awesome. It seems like he's just taking my poems and making a different point of view to them, like a reply to it.

All my poems have some meaning to them.

But, I'm giving up poetry.

I can't do it anymore. I've wrote everything out, and it seems like lately, i've had to force the words to come out. And people can see that.

I hate that.

What i hate more though, is the fact that these poems i've written lately, the ones i've wrote for 7ai, make me second think everything i've done.

It's killing me more than anything.

I'm not sure if i'll end up telling anybody yet. But if i do, i think i would want 7ai to know most of all.

No, not because i think it's his fault, i don't.

It's cause, i think he could explain it better than anyone why i wrote them.