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Walking down the street its like 93 degrees outside in the hot sun. I'm like the only
one wearing a jacket. I have a sleeveless shirt underneath. I can't take off my
jacket..........well I can but then people will stare at all the scars on my arm I mean flat out STARE. Idon't really give a damn if they stare or not, but at the same time
the questions and staring. Although I love o see their shocked expressions its fun
to look at them open mouth hoping a fly gonna go in. The questions bother the hell
out of me! I the acusations like: your crazy,your suicidal. Thats ******** bull s**t! I
chose to do this to myself,I chose the razor,I chose to cut myself,I chose to let out
my locked up emotions this way,I choose not to stop. I mean seriously just
because I cut myself doesn't mean I'm suicidal! ITS JUST A WAY TO LET OUT SOME
MOTHER ******** STRESS!!!!!!!!! GOD WHY THE ******** CAN'T YOU PEOPLE UNDER-
STAND THAT I MEAN ITS NOT THAT HARD!!!!!!!!!! People like this- no wait let
me rephrase that people who can't and won't understand this [********.
ALONE!!!!!!!!! I had my fucin friend- excuse ex-friend now aquantence saying
she is going to kill me. She says:"instead of killing yourself I'll kill you." As if I'm
gonna let her kill me I only got 5 more days of school after that I'll never
see her again! THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! she told me she was gonna make those
5 last days hell for me!!!!!! I don't really care. All I'm saying saying is that
I CHOSE TO DO THIS TO MYSELF!!!!!!!!!