I'm going to wait till tomarrow to go back to the hospital if my pain persists to get worse. I took one pill and a half of one and it didn't do much, made the pain worse. It's like what ever is causing my paind doesn't want it to go away and want's me to suffer. Some one said that it was imagined, like I was creating it myself. It's all mentally formed. Which is not true. I just know that's not it. There's something there that the doctors don't see or can't explain till they match it up with something, which could take days, months, or years. I just want it to go away. I'm probably going to try taking two pills and see if it will help more. Anyways, I've been feeling kind of sad lately because I've come to realize something. Now I don't know what to think, but I'm not going to give up on what I love most. I'll continue to wait. Even if I have to wait my whole life's time. Anyways, it's not like a lot of people care wrether or not I'm doing ok or not. Only one or two actually care but what ever. I've gotta go. Heaven is Love. Peace.
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