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I wrote this poem about Katie, I want her to read it so bad so she knew how I felt...but maybe it's best the she doesn't, I just don't know.

Forgetting You

I have to forget about you, I have to,
Everyone says I have to, that I should,
It's too painful to remember you,
Maybe it's for the best, I just don't know if I could,
I remember all the feelings, all the pain,
When we laughed, when we cried,
When you almost drove me completely insane,
I tried, I really tried,
But we both went our separate ways,
We both got hurt, we forced ourselves to forget,
You left me spaced, in a haze,
I wanted to forget the day we ever met.

I never did forget though, I'll always remember,
All the happiness, all the memories,
All the playing, all the time we spent together,
As it all comes back to me, I start to love you again,
I forget the hard times and all the pain,
I finally hear the faint whisper of your voice again,
I want you back with me, I want to make more memories,
I don't ever want to have to forget this time,
Forgetting is never good, it should be some kind of crime.

But now I'm not so sure,
We're happy now, having gone our separate ways,
Maybe I should let you go, maybe it's the only cure,
This sadness...maybe it's just a phase,
But it only comes whenever I try,
Should I hold out? Should I endure?
This confusion, it makes me want to cry,
Whenever I look at her, I can't help but smile,
But it's so hard to force myself, it's so hard to get by,
It tears me apart inside, like a broken piece of tile,
I'm left in pieces as I try to smile,
But she's the only way to make it worth the while.

I've decided now, it was hard,
I've forced myself to look at you differently,
I'm not hurt or scarred,
I've decided it was best for you and me,
If it's what you want, if it'll make you happy,
Then I'll go my separate way,
We'll be friends, nothing more,
But I'll always think of you as more than a friend,
I could tell you anything, in a special way,
You were more than a girlfriend, more than a person,
You went the extra mile,
You made my life worth the while.

...So that's it, I started to choke up when I wrote it, but I hope in the end everyone can be happy sad If Katie ever reads this though, I want you to know that you'll always be more than a friend to me, I've always thought that people in general couldn't understand one another, and I've always felt alone because of that, so I never trusted anyone, but you proved me wrong, thankyou. (I hope that kinda made sense you you sweatdrop )