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This is one of the crappiest nights. I can't sleep on my bed because there's a bunch of crap on it and I can't move the stuff until tomarrow when we move the futon out so we can get the hospital bed in so my b***h of a step mom can have some where "safer" to sleep in. Now I'm stuck with a crappy a** computer chair to try and sleep in. On top of that I can't go to school tomarrow which pisses me off. The bed was supposed to be here friday but the damned hospice place decided to give us more time. I really wish I could get away from this crap. I wish I'd be able to go back to Saturday night and just relive that for the remainder of time. Right now I'm feeling like s**t, I don't want to be here anymore atleast when I'm not talking to some one or being with them. But now to make things better, I'm kind of worried about something but I won't know until Saturday. "mom" is getting annoying again. I seriously hope she'll either die soon or they will get an opening at the Hospice house. I hate it when I can't talk with a certain some one because all the pain comes back when I'm not talking or with this person. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm going to stop there. I've said to damn much anyways. Heaven is Love. Peace.