I am very upset, and I do not know why. This weekend rather sucked. My friends all went out, did stuff, had a great time, and I was home. Alone. Not exactly their fault, more so mine. I did not want to go anywhere, and the friends I did want to see I could not contact. Not only that I just have this bad, bad feeling in my chest.
Honestly, I am getting jealous of a friend as well. A little hurt, although she is doing nothing to bring this on her. It is just me... I do not like hurting peoples feels so i will not talk about it, but it is starting to affect me. I am not thinking about what I say, tip toeing around liek I am walking on eggshells.
I used to have things so much better then I do now... and now... I am starting to hate myself again. Starting to get paranoid... and for that reason, I choose not to be around my friends. Jealousy and paranoia. Silly, huh?
On top of everything, boyfriend may have sleep apnia and a thyroid problem
Life is a b***h.
 -part time ninja- · Tue Jan 22, 2008 @ 05:03am · 1 Comments |
